5/3/14
I used to write in here when I was at a very low point in my life and I needed guidance and I remember it helping me- so I thought it would only be appropriate to use the same notebook. I had sushi today, first time since we split. I debated whether I would be okay eating it, since that used to be our thing. I survived. I wore my North Carolina hoodie last night too. It made the loneliness just a little bit bearable, but it made me miss your warm embrace. The sadness that fills my soul is unbearable sometimes. There are times that my heart is carrying so much pain that it feels 10 pounds heavier. Other times it's a little lighter, but the loneliness and tears set in. I miss you so much. As I am writing this, the tears are streaming down my face and onto the pages. I don't know what to do without you. You were my sun and my stars. I was your moon. Since you've been gone there is no more sunshine in my life. How can the moon shine on without her sun? I am merely just here, lurking in the shadows of what we used to be.
